Here I am again so wide awake. Cant sleep. NEED A SLEEPING PILL. I am so sad lately and confused. Something is bothering me. There's this one person I really dont like. GRRRR...I cant stomach her. Anyway, our eyes met again this morning but I didnt say anything to her. Anyways, i dont like to talk about that person coz its going to ruin my night.

My bf and I are in SD right now for Kaela's surgery. She is having an open heart surgery tomorrow morning and hopefully it is successful. Please help us pray for her. She's a sweet 11 year old girl but I'm jealous of her...hehehe...Bad me....

I had a very tough day today. I needed to get away from my BF to think about things. I went to the pool and read a book...Anyway, you have to read these books: MEN ARE FROM MARS AND WOMEN ARE FROM VENUS....MARS AND VENUS TOGETHER...It will help you improve your relationships with your husband, boyfriends and partners.

I'm still confused right now and dont know what to do...God please guide me...

Why people are never content?

Why people are never content with what they have? Why cant they just accept with what they have and appreciate it? I know someone and she have this wonderful person who loves her and she is very inlove with him as well but the problem is... he has some kids with his previous wife. Is that a problem? She never thought she would be dating someone with kids. I asked her why it matters for her so much. For as long as they are both inlove with each other. She said, Am I selfish?

What do you think? Is that being selfish? She doesnt think she is selfish...She just wants to have a little more time with him alone. Its funny when she said, Oh I dont like to hear him telling me his son is doing great at school nor his daughter loves to watch this or that. She said she loves the kids but dont like the idea that they are his boyfriend's children. I dont know what she's gonna do. Do you think she needs to leave him? She is really inlove with her boyfriend and trying to accept what he has but it hurts her. Their relationship is perfect except for that.

Do you think everything will be alright?

As for now, she is having a friend. They only exchange emails. They enjoy talking and she is happy whenever she reads his email. The man she is chatting with is very funny and no kids at all.

Isnt it right that she is chatting with somebody else? Should I tell her she should be thankful for having her boyfriend? These are the kind of questions I need to be answered so I can give her a good advice.

hope he's coming home tonight

Here I am again lying in the bed and doing nothing. I just finished cleaning the house oooppps wrong...i mean just finished cleaning our bedroom,bathroom and kitchen and it took me 3 days to be done. You know what took me so long? Coz I always took a break every 30 minutes and a 5 hour break...I know its crazy...

I am hoping that my boyfriend will surprise me tonight. He's in the Philippines since july 6 and he's supposed to come home tomorrow but I never heard from him today so I was thinking he's on the plane to honolulu...Am I day dreaming again? Well, theres no wrong about it right? I love to think positive if something is not going right. Like today, never heard from him so I was thinking he's gonna surprise me by knocking the door and SURPRISE........it's him! However, I get very disappointed when its not happening.

Well, I hope he's coming home tonight but if he's not then atleast this is my last night alone. I did too much preparations for his arrival. Oh I miss that crazy bastard... Anyway, I am currently watching Kathy Griffin show. Oh I so love her so much. She's so f___ing funny. She went to Miami for a vacation and looking for a second house. She found this house which she said perfect for her. Do you have any idea how much the house is? $17 - $ 20 million....God, its beyond expensive. And this is the funny part of this story....Kathy offered $1,750,000. It was her final offer and of course the realtor agent didnt accept it. Her offer was way too low....The realtor was very pissed because they wasted their time showing her the houses.

Ok.. I think I have to end here..I need my crazy little mind think again about crazy little things.

Babush

very longgggg day

It's my very first time to blog my thoughts...Well, I used to write my thoughts on paper and throw it away afterwards coz I didnt want anybody to read it...Or should I say, throw it or tear it when I wrote negative stuff about something... And if it is a positive journal then I keep it...but...I dont really know where I put it...somewhere, anywhere, everywhere?

Anyway, I want to thank Gretchen my friend for introducing this website to me. I never thought I could actually write my thoughts online? Isnt it amazing? oh, you wanna know why she told me about this website? ok then..... Actually, she sent this website to me on skype. I clicked on it and read her blogs. I was really impressed of her english (english is our second language) and the way she write it...It is super interesting...And so I asked her how to create a profile on this website and she told me to go to blogger.com. Thanks again Gretch...This will help me so much.

Before I continue to write, let me address one issue and its my english. If you notice some mistakes then please forgive me...huhuhu...Ok, I admit....its my second language and I'm trying to improve it OK...lol

I was doing general cleaning yesterday after I went shopping to buy new bath towels and new kitchen utensils at Target...Oh my God, I love that store. I've never been to target until yesterday. They have huge selections of things...you name it and they have it. I wasnt content with what I purchased so I went shopping again today with Bernard at Ross. I bought more towels, more rugs more kitchen utensils, and window curtains, and a set of a comforter. What was I thinking? I dont need it, I have it already but thats my weakness...if I go shopping then I dont notice about the money I have. I didnt have enough money to buy those things and fortunately I had $100 in my secret pocket which I almost forgotten. Senile yeah?

Im currently taking a break from cleaning and its already 10:57 pm...I should just continue tomorrow right? I'm so exhausted from this very long day of mine...I have to sleep now and you have a great weekend...